ciao ciao

..i am loved..

the more i type into this addiction..the more i feel the need for clarification..i have my family and i have my friends and i have my boyfriend and i have my best friend and i am complete with those things in life..

they will all be classified as so..if you know me then you know names..the boyfriend i dont think will like most of this stuff in here or that will be in here not because he is against any of it but he wont see the need in me doing this..but we will see maybe things will be different ...ok maybe he wont..he is making fun of me right now as i type and asking questions..for many reasons like my mom and dad dont research into these things they wont have an imput..we will see about the best friend...


...i went vespa riding with my dad earlier this evening..i instantly felt italian ..ok so i am italian..i felt extremely italian...it was nice, we rode around and looked at the new houses and talked about growth and expansion and how homes sell..funny to me because thats all we ever talk about..construction related topics..he truely strives for me to be a boy..i know it.


..he is such a calm man..today he was random i walked out side to see him frantically walking around the house with some twiggy looking kid and pointing at trees..too bad it wasnt a kid..it was some guy who showed me a gun shot wound with in five seconds of our conversation starting..very strange yet amusing..with in mins of the conversation beginning it ended with the guy walking away mid sentence..attention span of a gold fish..and then pulling out a chainsaw and there went half of our yard..trees gone..dad said he was a resgistered arborist..ok any guy who gets out of a beat up dodge shows you his bullet wound and then says hey i will cut down your trees for cash doesnt seem like the type of guy to register for something let alone have the title..arborist..attached to his name..but still my dad was oblivious..he really thought this guy was geniune..maybe he was alittle..but nothing near what my dad thought, i couldnt help but laugh when my dad looked at him and said hey man you need to slow down and breathe look people in the eyes and be calm..i just wanted to scream..crack.. ok that wasnt nice.. but it was true..very weird, and now we have about 40 trees just laying all over our yard..and how is this better then it was before..


..i cant eek out deep today sorry..


..i love my dad..and being italian too..

EDIT: i dont feel like proof reading tonight..spelling and grammatical errors are just gonna have to be delt with..