for your information...

soo last night i welcomed my great family from pittsburgh to charlotte.
and more importantly i saw my soldier...for the 1st time since christmas.
he leaves for his 2nd deployment.
the serious-ness in his eyes calms me but un-nerves me at what is ahead for him.
Another year of telephone calls thats are so expensive..but i would pay all the money in the world to know my best friend is safe.
Another year of waiting at a computer for the moment when we can talk on IM together...
because when you are oceans apart..that is the only close-ness you can have..and its worth it.

I am so making the best of this weekend with him.
i dragged him to my house to meet my family..ha. and there was tons of.."he's cute" and "we missed you, we respect you as a soldier"
we stayed up till 3 in the morning talking..i laughed..he looked so consumed with guilt...
and my best hopes are for him to understand i have no bad feelings and i want most in the world for his guilt to go away. It pains me that he lives day to day with that.
i see a better future...
and for your information...your a good man.