..bound in plaid..

..went to target the other day with the sister and i became obsessed, easy for me to do at target,

i bought a bunch of books for journaling.(check em)..yay. i am so in love with writing. i have like 6 different journal projects going on right now..im insane.

i think monday was the saddest day of my life so far to date: the soldier returned to the army. 2 weeks of being himself then back to being property of the army i stood at the gate (because the airport is nice and lets family go to the gate with deploying soldiers) and watched him walk away..back to afghanistan..and my heart sank. its not right. he deserves to be home..they all do.

i spent alot of time with him talking and saying he changed but i think i am the one who has also changed because of all this..i listened to a song in the rx-7 sitting next him crying , looking out the window and silently riding down 85 at like 3 am and it all really hit me about how this is for him. that same day the soldier came to my house and i watched him slide off his flip flops and run his feet in the grass and just seeing that made me realize how it was for him and how it is...i smiled at him and he smiled back, he has this way of being my best friend and looking so deep into my soul..he could tell me what i was thinking at any given moment..yet he still asks all the time..."what are you thinking about sunshine" it is burned into my mind..i will remember his voice saying that for the next 5 months ... and i ♥ you

life is simple..just as simple as squising grass through your toes....

...simple mind..simple pleasures...